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[RC] Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow, and the Day After - Dawn CarrieThis is from another list I am on and I thought everyone here could relate...have a tissue ready.
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Dawn Carrie
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Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow and the Day After
Yesterday, for the first time, I was too tired to ride I was afraid I would be hurt if I was thrown I heard someone say my barn was too shabby I let someone tell me I was too pudgy to ride I realized I was old I had to face that I could no longer keep up I had to let go of my dreams I felt my heart break I turned my back on my friend I knew I was done ? Today, for the last time, I felt warm, braided leather in my hands. I ran my stirrups up so they wouldn't bang my mare's sides I released the buckles on the girth and watched my girl sigh I slowly dropped the bit so it wouldn't hit her teeth I gave my mare a cookie to thank her for the ride I buried my head in her soft, warm neck I inhaled the sun and the dust in her long winter coat I closed the gate and trudged to the muddy porch I tracked hay and horse hair into my house I pulled off my boots and felt the sting of warm blood returning to my cold toes ? Today, for the first time, I cried after my ride I felt my hands shake as I set the saddle on its rack I hugged my young trainer a final goodbye I waited for the new owner's trailer to arrive I set my boots in a box to go to the Goodwill I sighed at the wear on my riding gloves I had no hay in my hair I did not hear nickering when I opened my back door I felt worse leaving the barn that I did when I entered I had no one to check on before going to bed ? Tomorrow, for the first time, I won't have to buy hay I can stay in bed longer I won't see the poop pile grow I won't be able to fly on four legs I will be sorry I listened I will regret letting her go I will be angry at God I will be angry at myself I will cry the day away I will be glad to die ? Day after tomorrow, for the first time, I will awaken in tears I will know I was wrong I will defy all the judgment I will ignore my old bones I will return the buyer's check I will bring my friend home I will take my boots out of the box I will be reborn ? For the rest of my life, I will have a horse in my yard I will ignore the cruel judging I will watch the poop pile grow I will have hay in my hair I will track mud in my house I will bury my face in her soft neck I will let my soul fly I will never be alone. ? Author Unknown
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