Re: Max

["superpat" <superpat@ccountry.net>]

Chris,
Know that your love and care of Max are what really matter. He had a
wonderful life with you and that's what you have to keep reminding yourself.
I am thankful that I have been fortunate enough to have my horses survive my
mistakes and errors in judgement. I apologise to my dear Taj every time I am
forced to witness the remnants of horrible rope burns on his neck (thanks to
a highly touted "Natural Horse trainer" who knew much less than he
imagined). And it is amazing how forgiving and accepting are these wonderful
and wondrous animals. I can tell you now that Max has already long forgiven
you. Your gentle caring and love are what was important. I am sure that
those who offer questions do so with only wanting to warn themselves and
others of the many things that can go wrong even in the best of all possible
worlds. To second guess, using twenty-twenty hindsight, we would all do
better and differently in a whole bunch of instances. So heads up, girl. Go
love on Star and your new little filly. And all the best to you.
Pat
----- Original Message -----
From: <guest@endurance.net>
To: <ridecamp@endurance.net>
Sent: Friday, May 25, 2001 11:50 PM
Subject: RC: Max


> Chris and Star paus@prodigy.net
> Please, no more email telling me how you would have done things
differently. I've already heaped enough guilt on myself for every endurance
rider in America. You weren't there. This is the most painful horse
experience I've ever had in my life. I've never cried so hard and so long,
not even when my former marriage broke up.
>
> Max was like our child. We were there when he was conceived. We nurtured
and raised him. We wanted only the best for him. I knew he would be too much
horse for me with my physical limitations and I did my best to find him a
great home.
>
> His buyer did her best to find him safe transport to his new home. We
trusted people who were supposed to know more than we did.
>
> There are a zillion things I would do differently if I could turn back the
clock. You don't have to live with the memory of a beautiful animal
thrashing around in a blind panic. Every time I come and go from my house,
the reminder is there in my driveway.
>
> It does me, my husband, the buyer, and Max no good to hear how we should
or shouldn't have done things.
>
> I just have to trust God that he needed Max more than I did and more than
his new "mom" did. I have to imagine Max in heaven doing his "shake hands"
trick to beg for treats.
>
> I have to look forward and take care of the wonderful horses that are in
my pasture now. I need to find peace and I won't find it if people keep
telling me the things I did wrong.
>
> chris
>
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